Let Me Reintroduce Myself
A glimpse into the rhythms, rituals, and reckonings shaping my life and work.
My first post here introduced you, Dear Reader, to the path that brought Sated Soul into existence, but it didn’t really introduce you to me. Which, now that I think about it, is such a Jesie thing to do: begin by explaining the purpose of the space without pausing to unfurl who I am.
I’m trying to make it a point in my life to find better ways to get to know someone than to ask them “so, what do you do?” So, I thought, this introduction post, approximately 18 months late could be a little more creative than simply listing off the places and spaces I’ve worked or learned.
What rhythms or rituals are quietly saving me right now?
Slow mornings, for one thing. I worked with a dietician I love who pressed the importance of pairing a little something to eat with my first cup of coffee. So weekly, I make these bars that have flax seed, oats, peanut butter, and a bunch of other good stuff. I have a square as I brew my coffee, and the supreme luxury this feels like is truly wild to me.
Yoga. I’ve stepped on and off the mat for the last several years, and every time I step back on, I wonder why I ever left. There’s something about the way yoga connects me to my body and myself.
My version of sensory deprivation. After a long or heavy work day, I often come home, go upstairs to our unusually large closet, turn off the lights, and lay on the floor in the darkness with the dogs on either side of me. Sometimes I’ll listen to a song I love, sometimes I’ll just take 10 slow and deep breaths. It’s a nervous system reset that signals to my brain and body that the day is done.
Reiki. I’m less than 6 months away from my Reiki Master certification. I’ve been incredibly dedicated, invested, and led with vulnerability and bravery in my training. The decrease in my anxiety, the stabilization of my nervous system, and my overall sense of peace (despite the world feeling less than peaceful right now!) has been the best convincing I could have received as to the power of Reiki. I offer it now in my work, and it’s been such a joy to witness how deeply it’s resonated with the people who’ve received it.
What am I gently unbecoming, or shedding, in this season of my life or work?
Because this reintroduction isn’t just about who I am - it’s about who I’m not anymore.
My focus for the last year or so has been to integrate all parts of myself as congruently as possible. Instead of dividing into “therapist Jesie,” “partner Jesie,” “grief worker,” “body image educator,” or the spiritual, woo-leaning energy-sensing version, I’m letting all of that be one whole self. Funny Jesie and deep Jesie. Light and layered. The self that believes in science and also calls in spirit.
I noticed this integration in a session not long ago. A client was grieving, and I could feel the energetic weight in the room shift. I didn’t say anything about it in a clinical way, I just paused, softened my voice, and offered a moment of breath together. I didn’t plan that. It wasn’t a “technique.” It was the therapist in me and the Reiki practitioner in me and the human in me all showing up at once. No separate hats. No performance. Just presence.
I’m shedding the idea that I have to be everything to everyone - and that whatever I am, has to be perfectly composed. If I’m honest, I’m also working really hard to shed performance, likability, and the idea that I have to be what I’ve always been.
I’m re-wilding, one might say. And I am allowed to change, evolve, and expand.
What’s a through-line in my life that’s always been there, even if it took me years to name it?
My high sensitivity and my gifts in Healing.
It wasn’t until the last few years that I discovered I was neurodivergent in this way - that I could pick up tons of pieces of energetic data instantly, feel subtle shifts in energy, or that my quick to be overstimulated and overwhelmed personality was something more than me being “too shy” or too introverted.
It’s been game-changing for me to realize this about myself, because my abilities as a Healer are deeply interconnected to my high sensitivity. I have to tend to both (high sensitivity and healing gifts) with tremendous care and plenty of rest.
What do I want people to remember after they leave a space I’ve held - whether it’s a room, a post, a conversation, or a session?
I have this guiding statement about what I create - I want what I do to honor softness and lead people back to their own intuition. That underpins all of what I do, write, say, and offer. I try to ask myself “Will this leave someone with something they didn’t have before? Will they feel like softness, tenderness, and sensitivity was bolstered here - held as a superpower, not as a liability?” I’m incredibly playful, and very funny - so sometimes that thing I leave them with is simply a laugh.
I hope people leave spaces I’ve held better than how they arrived. I hope they felt loved by me. I also hope they felt my boundaries, that my sureness of myself empowered them to be sure of themselves too. I hope they remember that it felt honest and true to be in that space with me.
What is this space for, and what is it not?
I’ve wanted to be a writer for a long time. In college I dreamt of spending my days people watching at coffee shops, and writing deeply helpful things that the world “really needed to know.”
I chose something else instead, dedicated my life to being a Healer. I have a sticky note on my laptop that reads “I am a clear channel for the highest healing good.” The message is also my phone lock screen. It’s a reminder to me that the healing that happens in my presence is not me...it is something I am able to channel/cultivate, carve out in the people I work with.
Sated Soul is a big juicy scratch for that writing itch of mine. It’s my way of holding onto the “could have been” in my life, and in many ways making it an “I really did.” This space means so much to me because I have real readers here. Kind people who look forward to the emails on Wednesdays. People who take time to comment when something I wrote landed, or meant something to them. I know most of my readers personally, and the ones I’ve never met or can’t quite place because of the email they subscribed with - I think about them often. Who are you? How did you find me? Do you feel belonging in my words?
Sated Soul will never be a lifestyle blog. It will never be a place of half-hearted recommendations or sponsorships. I think there is so much content being created right now because it’s easier to produce right now - technology is helping us throw into warp speed what used to be a longer process. I’d love for this little publication to grow, reach more readers, and have broader exposure, but even if it stays just us 112 or so souls, I’ll be plenty satisfied.
My aim is to keep Sated Soul real, rich, potent, honest, slow, sacred, and purposeful.
And I want you to feel that when you’re here. I want you to feel like there’s room for your softness, your questions, your contradictions. Like maybe something in these words mirrors something in you. Whether we’ve known each other for years or you stumbled here by accident, I hope this space reminds you that your soul deserves to be sated too.
A Gentle Invitation…
If being here feels like a kind of exhale, and you ever wonder what it might be like to work together more directly - I’d be honored. You can receive Reiki (in person or virtually), join a Seasonal Self gathering, attend a workshop, reach out for therapy if you're in Colorado, connect for body image coaching from anywhere, or consult with me if you're a fellow clinician. Especially if you’re a helper, healer, creative, or a highly sensitive soul - there’s likely a space meant for you here.
I trust people find their way to the right thing at the right time.
I love this piece about you, Jesie. I love how you have a natural gift as a healer and how you are embracing it. You truly have the kindest soul.
absolutely beautiful 💖
...and i most definitely feel a sense of belonging, space for softness + contradiction . . . here and near you. what a gift.